1 more working weekend before celebrating Lantern Festival.
I accepted the invitation to be the Mc and DJ for the entire month's event at Sunway Carnival Mall.
After some competitions held, especially the lantern painting competition today, i learned something.

A girl from group C, was crying aloud because she accidentally made a hole on her lantern wall. Their mission is to paint the lantern provided by the organiser, by using poster colors. She was trying to paint the entire lantern with the wet material. To be frank, her combination of the colors was the best among her group, and we predicted she would win it. but just 15 mins before submitting, it happened to her artwork.

She cried very loud, and threw her lantern on the floor, as if she totally gave up on her lantern. everyone was looking at her, and she didn't care much about others. Her mum asked her not to give up, she said she couldn't paint it as it's gone.

She cried, because she afraid to be the loser when i announce the result?
or
she cried because of her effort of 2 hours had been wasted?

both of them might be the reason.

hence, i felt the need to say something before announcing the result. I didn't know whether the contestants were really listening the meaning behind, but as an Emcee for any event, i know i have the responsibility to say on.

Competition, especially those related to art, has no real loser or winner. Everyone came from different background of learning, and something great developed from their talent or passion. Being a person who has artistic ability, the most important thing is to have a platform to showcase his/her art.
The judges themselves, might have totally different approach about art, so do for their taste.
We learn things from competitions, we have the chance to see other contestants' works and ideas, we learn from the mistakes we do in any single competition, and we develop more and more from there by widening our visual about art, and then it makes our art become very different, unique and mature...our nation needs great artists to bring greater influence and breathe to our cuture and development. it should be what competitions are for.
So, to the small girl, you learned that, by painting very wet colouring material on this kind of lantern will not work, you will avoid repeating the same mistake for your next competition, you might be getting higher mark than now after some experiences. You learned things, this is the most important thing for you to participate in any competition. you saw other contestants' artwork, you see new ideas, and new approach, you might absorb them and apply on your artwork in the future, you gained more than what you have lost this time. I can assure you on this...

One of the jury saved you lantern by folding the layers back from the bottom of your artwork, we really felt good about your sense of using the colors. though you didn't get into the top 3, the consolation prize is nothing much too different from what the winner held in her hand.
She won, because the jury felt good about her artwork, doesnt mean your artwork is bad.even you didn't cause a big hole on your lantern, you might not be the winner still due to their taste of judging.

It's hard not to feel bad when we didn't win.I truly understand it as i came from a childhood which was full of competitions too.I didn't win all of them, but i did win some major competitions.I can feel the pressure to head for competition. I understand the preperation we made might not bring us victory.
But, try to think about the reason why "objective" of the competition must be written on your registration form.it has been there for decades, to remind everyone what is a particular competition held for.Just that, we normally ignored it, and read on for the rules and prizes details.
Since then, competitions become unhealthy, and the unnecessary pressure were carried to the competition venue.
It might be effective for some contestants, but majority of the contestants failed to perform as good as their practice at home.

You may become a real artist without winning any single major competition, but you have to see the world of art from different angle, from different people and from different culture.
If you are looking for the competition where you sure win, the world might feel sorry to tell you that there is no such competition.
If you are looking for a platform to showcase your talent and what you have learned a bout art, yea, join as many competitions as possible to widen your visual.

i talked to a mum of a twin contestant, i could easily recognise them, as they are regular contestants for many event i hosted. I could see their passion from their art. They didn't win many times, but they are still participating, as long as there are platforms for them. Their mum told me, that they love everything about art. They didn't care much about the prizes and the ranking. When they learn something and see something, they absorb, and they discuss with each other, to make their next production more different. and when they have the chance, they will go to show the world, they get assurance by winning them, when they lost, they wont even feel sad about that, they know they love their artwork.
those prizes they won, they "threw" them in one of the corner of their house, and their parents didn't even dare to unpack them, and they remain there for months and years.

What a lovely pair of twins.

Competition, is not for us to compare ourselves with others.
It's for the jury to compare which one they prefer.
of course we do need to improve by learning and absorbing new things, but make this the thought, and not to compare and waken your desire to win anything.
It's just unhealthy.




guess what is this? my very first time seeing this interesting thingy.
it's called 菱角, not sure what it's in english.
We gotta steam it before eating. break it into halves, then dig the first half with the horn of another half and eat.LOL...
According to older ppl saying, having it during mid autumn can make small children become smart and intelligent.
no wonder i am so like a pig...LOL

This is how my room in Penang looks like.
I know i know that the colors of the blue cabinet is not really matching with others.but well, i am ok with it, since it's super cheap and i gotta be proud of myself as i fixed the table and the blue cabinet and the rack by myself.hehee...

Life here is simple and disciplined.
I wonder because i love it.
I wake up 6.30am in the morning and have my wholemeal bread as my breakfast with a cup of hot coffee, when i drink the coffee i like to stand beside my window, because the sea is just infront of me.awww,who said sea view can only be available for expensive house har? ahahhaa...i found it a good angle for sea shots too!
then i will go bowel, shower and prepare for work.
i work until 5.30pm. I rush back to Butterworth to teach my remaining students until 9.30pm. then i rush back to pg again to iron my cloth for another day's work, and also shower and sleep. my roomate said when she sees me on monday or tuesday night, i look like being anal'ed by African!!!LOL

I have 4 jobs now. I am working in office, i teach students ,i am the dj again for half month, and i snap for actual wedding too.
big applause for myself...clap clap.



this is how i looked like before turning fatter.and before the break-up=(
i miss my dear so much.
it hurts, but i am ok with it now.



This is Lil Pig. my taiwanese student. he came back and he is going to stay for just a few weeks before going back to Taiwan.
When he reached, he always disturbs Nicole to bring him to see me. Because he has 2 songs to play for me.he also gave me a taiwanese made greentea Muazhi.He is sooo cute and sweet.touching lah.

I will remember this 2 songs. and ur smile=)
But i wonder why i become like this when talking to kids...soooo not me when i talk in normal tone=)

I love Lil Pig.muakkkksssss!!!

Well, we finally broke, and now i have one more brother.
Good news is, everyone is calling it as a good thing to me, i shud find a closer one for my next dear dear.

I had been crying for the entire week last week.
I moved to penang, left my mum alone at home, who needs me a lot for the fetching job.
I learn how to be independent by living my own, buying things for my own, washing clothes for my own, taking care of myself,trying hard to earn more by doing more wedding shooting and dj'ing...
and hence, it's hard for me to see my frens, as going out involve costs for travelling.and not much left after all these.
and then, i have chosen a job where i totally have no idea on it.everything seems so funny for me.
my mum called tht day, and for the very first time she talks to me so gentle.and i almost wanted to cry out. and right after the call, my dear dear sms me to say that he was afraid that his heart cannot continue with me...as he lost himself and donno where his heart goes.
i was freaking out.and my tear cant stop falling...

what a good timing for all these to come together huh.

he said, he is super tired nowadays, and he hopes tht i can be there, but he wont tell me these, since he knows i am not financially stable yet for this 2 months. but he really wants to see me.
another reason is, he felt that i love him more than he loves me.and i am the one who keeps on putting in effort, which make him feel pressure and he doesn;t like the feeling,
and he felt suddenly the pak tor feeling gone liao.
i asked whether he needs more time to reconsider, or he wans a break. and he chosed the latter.
hurt right?

i was totally collapsed, luckily i got cs and vic who fixed the streamyx for me and accompanied me thru msn. and my mum is considerate. and my work here is smooth and my boss is nice.

my dear dear said, he still cares abt me, will treat me like a bro.
what else can i request?

so
i am single again.

but i still miss my dear dear .

i hope i can get rid of this soon.

i love u all, my fren.i must be strong.

For the very first time i have decided to stay in the Penang Island,with Pinky, my ex colleague in Purnama jelita.
the rental is 200 inclusive of electricity and water.

For the very first time i stay outside from my house.Everything must be challenging enough to me. With a new job found, recommended by Pinky, i gotta deal with Excel, and official things. It's an admin clerk 5 days week job. without experience, i know normally people will only get the income of around 700-800 per month, but i am lucky enough to have the salary doubled.

The fathery boss is a very talkative person, for some circumstances, i feel that he is a bit too long winded and forgot about the point.
But he and his wife are very friendly to me, they calmed me down by telling me not to worry about the paper works. The existing clerk is going to teach me what to do soon.I am going to work on the coming Monday , 8.30am-5.30pm...until the clerk leaves on 1st of June,then i will be the only one under the boss, to handle everything...
He told me that the office politic is already there, but not to worry, since the existing clerk has already told him about the situation, and he knows what to do.

Well, i am going to buy a wardrobe, fan, hair dryer, mirror, a large container for my room. other than that, i have almost everything i can bring to there from my house.
i might have no internet access for around 1 week plus before it get installed.

i recalculated the expenses, and i must admit that i gotta spend wisely, or else i wont have anything left in my bank account.
it's a shock to me that, if i wan to have the amount i want to save, i must control my daily meal below RM7. to be more accurate, RM6.67 per day. I tried to have breads and make my own sandwich everyday, it can be lower than this cost.tough life then:(

Oh my....finally i have got a job offer under a friend's recommendation.
It's an admin clerk job, 5 days per week, office hours, no need to work over time, and flexible enough. I love office job. can wear shirt and slack, tight tight one, to show how sexy and how smart am i.LOL.
The location will be at the Penang Island, just right in front of the Jetty there. It's a packing company.I will be responsible for the payroll, paper work, data entry, Excel( where i gotta learn it now), and emailing...it seems a very boring job, but i gotta learn from beginning as i totally dont have any experience in these before, this is considered as my very first proper job after my SPM.and the salary is considered very very high for my condition and this kind of job.
I appreciate it very much, i am lucky enough to have this chance coming to me after suffering from joblessness for more than one month:(

I went to Paya Terubong to meet up this future boss yesterday.
when the boss turned up, i was like, oh, wow....he is tall and smart, and though a bit old, but i think he is a great guy.
He said the payment will be made every 15 days of a month, and then all payment is by cash. i requested the reversed thing, i.e. i wan payment once every month only, and i request cheque payment...ahahaha...weird right?i am a weirdo.
His eyes are very very nice, and despite he has white hairs already, i still feel that he is a lovely father, very fathery father of 3 children. he was a photographer too, and he told me there was once his wife said, when their house was on fire, dont take anything but the camera and film, as for her wife, memory is the most important thing to keep, when it is lost, it's lost. but money can be earned back.i was like awww...he is a sweet guy.

Cs and Vic fetched me there because their counter is just right in front of the place we met yesterday. when i told them abt our conversation, i did mention that the boss told me that his hp will be on for 24 hours everyday, if got anything, i am free to contact him.
then i created the following fatt hao conversation btw me and this cute boss:

one day...when i turn into single again...
Fred: sob sob...boss...where r you now? i am very sad, i need to see you,sob sob...
Boss: oh my, where are u? i go to find you now

Fred: I donno where am i, i am single again, and i have lost the direction, but i know i am now at Greenlane's Mcdonald...sob sob...
Boss: ok, fred, stay there, dont go out from the car, it's dangerous for u to show ur crying face, orang jahat might kidnap u, and fuck u

Fred: i wud rather ppl fuck me than i am single...no one want me now, boss...sob sob..
Boss: awww..don say that, u have me, rite? u r not alone

Fred: but...i am a gay...i have many frens, but they cant be my companion who can share my life
Boss: arrrhh...u r gay? why u din't tell me?i might be interested fred.

Fred: sob sob...boss, don be kidding, u have family and children...sob sob...
Boss: oh, dont mind abt that, my wife knew i am a gay actually, i heard of this "PLU" term since i was 17, but due to family pressure, i gotta get married.

Fred: but u cant do that, u have wife and children...u cant leave them, they need u
Boss: nah...my wife knew i am a gay actually, i told my children when they were born, that ur father is a gay, and will not be with them forever, once i found my lover, i will throw u all away...be prepared for these.

Fred: but but...sob sob...
Boss: no more but, i found that u r very cute and smart actually, i wanted to be with u, but i dare not anticipate that u r a gay...i din break op with my family bcos i have yet to see my potential lover, my wife is totally ok to let me go when i am attahced with a guy.

Fred: oh my...boss, it's not the right thing to do
Boss: to me, having you in my arm is the right thing

Fred: but...we might not match...sob sob...what is your horoscope boss?sob sob...
Boss: oh dear, nothing to do with horoscope, i believe that when two persons are together, they gotta tolerant a bit to each other, i can stand for anything bad of u, dear

Fred: but...there are reasons why horoscope is a proper study in overseas beliefs, tell me what is your horoscope boss..sob sob...pls....sob sob...
Boss: aww....u r so sweet and cute, fred, i am Virgo

Fred: sob sob....then we r not match at all, boss...how?wwuuuuu~~~~
Boss: i don bother, i will love you forever, i loved u since the first day i saw u,u don have to worry abt that, i am not young anymore, i know u r sweet and loyal, u wont leave me, will you?

Fred: no, of course i wont...i can be sticky and demanding, boss
Boss: yea, i know, from the day u told me u want me to pay u once a month, and by cheque, i know u are a demanding guy, but, silly guy, do u think i am not capable of all these?i am a superman...

Fred: really? i know u r a superman...am i single now, boss?
Boss: no, no no...u r not single, u r attached, u r now being loved and hugged tight tight by me, i am ur sugar daddy...

Fred:boss...u are really a sweet guy, u r the best for me...but...
Boss: but what? fred?

Fred: i am....hungry now...i havent eaten anything since the quarrel with my ex just now, can i go out of my car and have mcdonald now?
Boss: oh my boy, u stay in the car, dont cry, turn on the radio, tune it until u hear happy songs, dont be sad, i am on the way to ur side now, dont go in the Mcdonald yet, i need to pay for you,ok?

Fred: oh...thank you very much, boss
Boss: don call me boss, don say thank you, i am your darling now, it's my job to make u feel happy and protected

Fred: oh...ok ok...come now, i am too hungry my darling
Boss: yes sir, i will be there in 1 minute time.

fred: bye bye, see you soon
Boss: look out from your window, i am inside the BMW 5 serie now, can u see me? black car here

Fred: darling~~~
Fred: sweetheart~~~

end

super wu liao rite?

well, he is really a sweet guy.
hahaha

the most important thing is...
I got a job, hurray!!!!

Oh yeah, kindly visit my flickr site to see my recent;y snapped wedding photos.

http://www.flickr.com/frederick-photography

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She is Nicole, my ex piano student who is currently studying in Canada.
I am so proud of her. She has won numerous piano competitions in Canada.



in this piano competition, she told me that she is one of the top 4. This state competition is very very challenging and tough, and another 3 contestants are from China, and they have diplomas in hands.Nicole was the only one without diploma in piano and she is the only malaysian!!!
She told me that she didn't know the reason she was there. I told her that the judges are professional, u have ur value there, don even suspect ur existence in that competition, they chosed u for reasons!She din win it, but she was contented with her achievement.



this is her piano teacher, a russian...who helps nicole sooo much.



this is the dream piano that every piano student must touch. Unfortunately, nicole had the chance to touch it earlier than me.LOL

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this car decoration is super cute....kungfu panda!!!




Cs just changed a new handphone, nokia 5800. But the camera always makes me look sissy even i tried to pose as manly as possible. then i called the 5800 as sissy handphone.
I told him tht i better pose like a sexy guy to see whether it can capture my manly side...well, so far this is the most manly pic i can find in his hp






The caps are very nice.i jus put on my head and see whether i am suitable. but finally i din buy one...i seldom wear this...now i spend according to my need and ability.



currently attending interviews for new job.and i took this pic at outside , i seldom have chance to wear like this.

i have decided to work in a bridal shop , as an admin person or sales person.
hope to get used to it soon.

i love everyone ..muak muak muak...
i am getting better now=)

It's weird.
From the day i left the company, i was finding chances to be MC or DJ for some events, at least not totally jobless and without income rite? but then i found no chance to host at all.
Then i started to seek for a permanent job, and i got choices to consider, then i started to receive a lot of invitations to be MC or host. and they are willing to pay me higher, and they really wan me to do it for them.
I am happy to have these people thinking about me when they need a DJ or MC. It means i am good enough for them to contact me.

But i am so sorry....i am going to totally quit this.
What is a dream?
Dream is beautiful from outlook.and u will never know how cruel is the real world to make ur dreams ugly.The tighter u grab your dream, the more you will be disappointed with it.only those who is in this line will know how is the life of being a DJ or MC.

My friends asked me, am i going to regret on this.
I am sure that life is full with compromises.
i am going to compromise for my teaching job as well. leaving only very few of my own students, just because of the new time working schedule.
The reality is, i can earn and learn more from the new job, and it's related to my future career. not to say that i lost my passion for teaching, i still enjoy teaching much, but it shouldn;t be my main work.
There are times that the event persons called and i told them i am quitting this.
Yea, i am quitting. but i will see how important am i to your event. it depends on the price.
it's always sad to see the event persons earn from our commissions, and paying us less than the market price. I am sick of it, damn event persons!!!and now i am going to damn you all back, fuck out!!!!LOL

I am going to work in a new environment soon.
there are challenges that i have to cope with. but as i said, i can learn many things there.

thanks dear dear to inspire me to get a car and a house for myself.
It's a shock to know the monthly installment for these after getting them.
There are chances to learn all these from now on. i gotta plan properly for the money i spend and save and invest.i started to realise that we should actually save from the day we got our first job. i was shock on my spending behavior for the past 10 years after graduated from college.
and now i look at my bank account, i am sweating and shaking...i must do something to make the total increase.
KWSP sent me a yearly statement. i remember i was working as a temporary teacher in my highschool after graduated, for 6 months. they paid us 600 something per month tht time. and it was the time i got my EPF account. and both side now makes a total of around 2k...
well, my dear dear bought his house by using the epf money.
it's jus enough for paying the down payment. not even enuf to pay for the full renovation and all electrical items for his new house.
i wonder, if i got a proper job or i did put in money into my EPF last time, until now the amount will be very different hor.

I went to sunway carnival mall with jet and victor yesterday. They ordered a new Honda City 2 weeks ago. and they brought me to the car exhibition area in sunway to have a look at the price of the local made in malaysia cars, and had the fake test drive there.
i must say that it's fun to have chance to really dream of getting a car.
i din know much abt the calculations for the monthly installment, but they were willing to teach me step by step.
and i know, i can get myself a car soon this year or early next year.
if i save my money with care, i can even get myself an apartment or condo after few years.
arrhhh....i am still regret on the way i spend money for the past 10 years.
i can get so much if i was rational enuf:(

i hope it;s not too late to plan from now.

i am a lucky boy to have frens who know all these.
especially my dear dear...u inspire me for all these:)thank you very much.
muak muak muak

well...i am currently attending for series of interviews for my future full time job.
Hence i have the chance to korek out all the beautiful shirts that i bought last time.They are really expensive to me, but i seldom have chance to wear them for daily work or DJ job.
This shirt i bought it 2 years back, and never wore it before.
i bought 2 slacks last year and never wore them either. the size is 29 inches. and i tot i cudn't wear it, but it jus fits me nicely...omg omg...my waist is just 29"???impossible, but how come it jus fits me???

hence, series of cam whoring too:)











and and and...i went to meet up Thomas on tuesday to pass him the money for the replacement of my DJ job at tht lounge.
Celebrated the belated birthday with him by giving him a treat at Seoul Garden Gurney Plaza.
This is Thomas





This is his first time visiting this Seoul Garden.we had great time there:)

well, back to my interview.
I think i am lucky enuf to have chances before jobstreet respond to my applications.
The first interview yesterday hor, i din apply for it one, but jobstreet recruiting staffs saw my info and resume online, then called and asked me to attend the interview next day.
they are offering a branch manager position for an opening soon bookstore near my place. and they worried that my working time will crash with my teaching job at night. and they frankly said, when u start working, i probably wont have time to do other things. and i said when i try to apply for a new job, i am prepared for the compromises...they said well...
they were really frenly and honest.i like the way they convey the importance of the position to me. i told thme not to worry. working for longer hours are ok for me as long as the pay is ok.
they added that i don have experience in this, so the salary might not be high and they din say how much and i din ask.bcos i think i shud reserve saturday and sunday for my photography biz.they will inform me abt the result after one week's meeting.

then i went for the other interview in the afternoon with my ex boss. he is sooo kind and keep on promoting me as an experienced MC and sales person in front of his manager of tht bridal shop.
There are choices for me. be their admin staff who works from 10-7pm 6 days per week with lower pay. or work from 12-9pm 6 days per week as their sales person, including photographer and software person, where i got much more higher pay.
I told the manager that i am going to go down to KL one weekend per month for some important thing.and they are ok with it.
another trouble is that i still have students with me where i got commitment with them, since they have been learning under me for years.
so i will arrange them to attend my classes on my only offday.
it shud not be a prob then.
i am going to see u dear dear once a month.and i can move out to stay outside liao!!!freedom banzai!!!!

wish me luck for my new job. i start working in May!!!

Cs, Victor and me were off to KL on 16th and reached here on 19th around 4pm.
The purpose i went to KL is to meet my dear dear.



Bro Leon welcomed us to stay at his place, and then Mervin, Agus, Ken and my dear brought us to a nice place for a dinner.

My dear stayed with me overnight at Leon's apartment.
Then dear dear woke me up with hugs and kisses 5am something in the morning.
He then went to work with sleepy eyes and tired body.well, we did nothing actually.
He offered me the warmest hugs and kisses before leaving for work. and we were preparing for shopping at Sg wang later.





We took some pics before going out. it's weird that ppl still suspect that my dear dear is this huge guy, CS!!!!OMG...

We bought many things. including the irrational hair products at dealer's prices, and those clothes that i didn't really plan to buy.
then we enjoyed the new coffee from starbucks-- Dark Berry Mocha
it's a very very great drink!!!

dear dear then came back from work and saying tht he was almost aslept in the office..i was like...awwww...hehehhee...
then we went for dinner and had a stay at Mervin and Agus huge Condo!!!it's really huge and beautiful. and not to mention abt the hamsters in their study room!!!they r soo cute.
Then i remember tht night we did nothing again, and u went aslept very very soon.

18th.
i followed u to ur new house. and i saw it.
wow, though it's too small for me to know tht its price is more than 250k.
but i know u r very happy with the house. and u were buying things for the renovation.
and i can see it's progressing fast.
i followed u to get lights for ur house.they added up for a total of 1715, but i think it's still considered much more cheaper than my camera thingy!!!
but to me, they r more practical and useful lah.
we went back to ur old house, i greeted ur parents, and tested on the gift i bought for u..it didn't work on ur DVD player, and u were quite disappointed=(
but then we went to mervin's place for dinner. they made noodles for us.
we had nice chat and i felt sooo sad to leave u another morning=(

19th.
i woke u up.
then we took some nice pics at their balcony.





awwww...
we don look matching...but then...hehehe...i love this pic sooo much:)

the saddest thing is...i still cant see the expression that u wan me to stay longer.
ur hp got problem, and u kept on looking at it.ignoring my head which was put on ur shoulder and my hand on ur arms=(
i at least saw ur eyes where u turned back to me before getting in to Leon's car.



this is Jet, or the so called Cs




this lovely couple!!!






and me....with my cap!!!


Dear Dear ...
i really miss u lah
i think i fell in love with u already lah...

i remember all the things u bought for me and the lovely song u MMS to me

but i am seeking for a job now...i hope it will allow me to visit u as often as once per month=)

Dear Dear,
I love you=)

awww...
finally...after covered by loneliness for few weeks, i can meet my dear dear again liao.

i am going to KL by tomorrow around 2-3pm. we estimated the time we arrive there will be 7-8pm.

victor and cs are going too. so we decided to drive down to KL rather than following the original plan to take plane:) hence we can save more than RM80 per person leh. can eat how many meals u know?can buy how many nice clothes u know?

i hope this time we will have sweet memory like last time.
i cant wait to hug hug my dear.

Bon voyage frederick!!!

will update here after reaching here on sunday:)